NGAKAK!

Ratu Disco 1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fohs7ivzb0g


Ratu Disco 2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zyK2f3w15q8

you, again

For every tear that has fallen
For every harsh word
For every lie you told
For every gloomy night

I wish you happiness you don't deserve.

questioning : B

No one knows 'cause I lock it so deep inside.

No one knows me no one knows you. No one knows us, we barely know each other

I've tried to look deeper inside you. Followed you around.

Make a conclusion and try not to believe it, then make another prediction. Reverse.

Being you, being dark, being weird.

Being me, being bright, being ordinary.

Being us, being sleepless, being polite. That's all.

Questioning myself time and time again

Do you really know that much? Or are you clueless, just like me?

Are you trying so hard to be that person? 

That person I hate and adore at the same time.

Let me erase you from my mind. 

No, let me change the picture of you in my mind, to another shape, another color, another you.

From this moment on. 

Butterfly In My Stomach

Music is magic, I agree. These songs always give me 'fluttery' feeling in my stomach everytime I listen to them :)

• My Idea Of Heaven - Leigh Nash
• Built To Last - Melee
• On Top Of The World - The Carpenters
• Feels Like Home - Chantal Kreviazuk
• Darling I Do - Landon Pigg
• La Vie En Rose - Donna Summer
• Saltwater Room - Owl City

you

Just watched Social Network and I saw someone in Mark Zuckerberg. Well yeah, that someone. Dear you, "you're not an asshole, you're just trying so hard to be"

God, how can You be so good to me?

H-15

You know you're day is super-hectic when you have to deal with so many things at a same time. 

Like when you turn to your left, someone ask you about 'the event', and when you busy discussing about 'the event' other person call you, and you turn your head to your right, and that person ask you about 'the publicity'. Then you discuss discuss and discuss, you think think and think. Your phone's ringing, you pick it up, and someone ask you about 'the media partnership'. You talk on the phone, you hang up. And your phone rings again, it's a message, another different person asking you about 'the money' and that person tells you "We need a lot more..". You look at your watch, and you remember you have an appointment with one of the 'guest star' of the event who not-so-accidentally, your juniors. You see them perform. Their behavior's killing you. And you realize you have an unfinished assignment you have to submit before 12 a.m, and again, you take a look at your watch, it's already 9 p.m.

And that, my friend, is what happening to me, to my life, to my days, lately. I swear by God, it is exhausting and confusing at the same time. One time you're in one place, and the next time you're in another. One time you talk with a person, and in a blink of an eye that person is gone, and here comes another person, bringing you another problems on the table.

I can barely remember dates and days, 'cause everything is so mixed up. Those conversations, those faces, those agreements, they're all MIXED UP IN MY HEAD!(thank God I have a note book). I'm exhausted, I run out of energy, but these few things keep me going

this desire inside to beat all the challenges ahead

this promise I made and this responsibility I took 

those excited faces and hard work of my whole team

those 'Ayo Sarah, Semangat! We're doing this together' kind of sweet words

those ambitious plans

those images of what will happen on 27th Nov

And the most important is, I'm doing this with and for my second family, Kom08. That's all. That's enough to keep me going. 

re a li ty

Life gives me a lot of priceless lessons lately. I don't need books, or world leaders to teach me those kind of lessons. It's not from school, it's from something we call REALITY.

I learn when to let go and when not to.

I learn to accept that not all people think the way I think, act the way I act, and the hardest is, feel the way I feel, even those whom I thought surely would.

I learn to share when I don't have enough for myself. I learn that, the word 'enough' is relative. 

I learn to love people, try hard to make them love me back, and accept if they're not.
I learn to work my ass off.
I learn to push myself in and pull myself out.
I learn to believe that people DO change.
I learn that personal confrontation and unimportant chit-chat with strangers are my worst weaknesses
I learn to be brave. I learn to forgive, I learn to apologize, I learn what the word 'sorry' really means.
But the most important is i learn that  reality really is bitter most of the time, but it gets a little sweeter as we chew it :)